Cycle 20
7 November 2021 12:38 p.m. Day four. So that's it, it is almost done. Few more remaining stains and it will be over. I feel exhausted, drained and weak. I think back at how painful the past few days have been for me. I can't help but wonder, is that it? Or is the worse yet to come? The intensity of my cramps and postmenstrual symptoms have all led me to feel even more confused than I was before about my PCOS. None of the previous 19 cycles' symptoms resembles my 20th one. As a matter of fact, it is only tending to worsen. I wouldn't lie, all of it makes me feel worried sick. I cannot help but think that the remedies I tried have all been wasted. I woke up trying to pluck out these hairs on my chin again this morning. I swear to God, I am so despiteful for that. I wish I could truly reach out to any kind of support group about this. I have grown so used to my appearance being judged as an outcome of overeating, that I have developed a bad eating mechanism where I would m